As I sit alone in the home study, couped up in the warm, I look up and gaze through the skylight to see the fern tree rustling vigorously in the wind. The naturistic image is somewhat obscured by the rain as it trickles down the slanted glass, and drips on the outside ledge.
Pitter-patter, drip-drop – the weather today is relentless.
I strongly feel society, and especially social media has led me to believe there is only one way for me to live my life – by meeting one person, getting married, having kids, buying a house, working the same job for 40 years, enjoying at best, 10 years of life, then dying. In all honestly, that in itself makes me feel a little depressed.
“Follow me” – Mumbles, Swansea, Wales
For some people, that’s all they want, and I genuinely admire and envy that – the ability to feel happy and content with those things. But it’s just not me. Whether that’s because I don’t have them in my life right now, I’m not entirely sure. At this moment in time, that version of life unsettles me. It feels like being pigeonholed by what I see online – even while knowing that 99% of that content is complete and utter garbage.
I always think about visiting different places when I day dream at work, which at the moment, it the majority of the time! I guess we all do, from time-to-time, but being constrained to 4 brick walls really puts things into perspective.
“… mountain greatness.”
Why, when the world is so beautiful, am I confining myself to a little box room trying to sell products to people? There are so many other things my eyes could be feasting on. It’s literally a chalk and cheese scenario.
When I think deeply about what I’ve just written, I just cannot comprehend my own words. I feel like I can go anywhere and see anything. The world is my clam… oh no, it’s oyster! In theory, I can, I’m only working to ‘pay the bills’ – god, that sounds so grown up and boring. I felt so pressured into buying a house and doing the ‘normal’ thing, that I now almost regret it – and that’s weird, I never regret much in life.
“Our Mountain” – Bușteni, Romania
The above is one of my favourite photos. Taken from a train, behind glass, with a Canon 90D DSLR. Normally, when you look at a photos, it’s not even close to half as good as it is in real life, here though, it was pretty darn close. The view was simply breath taking. Sometimes our minds experience greatness when we least expect it – This was certainly one of those times – We were simply hopping from one city to another whilst simultaneously witnessing mountain greatness.
So, what have we learnt from this?
Stop settling for things because they are comfortable, look into the mirror and ask yourself: “What do I really want to do?” – if you’re still not sure, like me, change things anyway, because there’s a 99.9% chance it’s going to be a better decision than staying in your current job and changing sweet FA.
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“I can’t, what if it doesn’t work out?”
Who cares?!
Nobody.
Nobody is judging you, it’s only your perception that they are.
What are your thoughts?